DEATHSTARS OFFICIAL FORUM

so this morning i was thinking "i have holidays, so i'm gonna go to town and get coffee and breakfast at dunkin donuts" but here in my old hometown, there is no dunkin donuts....so then i was thinking "i'm just gonna go and make myself and nice mug of hot chocolate and a nice toast with jam"...my sister has neither jam nor cocoa powder in her house....about half an hour later the company that was supposed to send me my phone last tuesday already calls me and tells me the earliest date i'm gonna get it is middle of february which is when i'm gonna be in helsinki...
oh and then i remembered that last night i broke my promise to myself and talked to the guy and not only was he nice and always, but he told everything i wanted to hear...

life is such a bitch

^ That does not sound like a good start of a day at all

Respectless idiots.

We watch a movie. They sing in the movie. These guys start to sing along loudly. People tell them to shut the fuck up. They don't. Suddenly I realize I should've done like some of the 6graders in the beginning and left the room to go for one of the other options.

I didn't quite recognize who these people actually were until the end when one of them pushed me on the way out of the room and said "move it, ghost". That's when my brain goes "ah, it's one of the bullies".

if ghost is one of the mean things bullies say to you then you got somne pretty nice bullies there.

ugh i'm tired. free time today? LMAO about... 2 and a half hours. fuck that.

Nice... or uncreative?

Meh they're more dumb than mean. Things they call me aren't really things that a brain needs more than one cell to come up with.

the cold

my dumbshit surfstick being a bitch

That's right, most bullies aren't very smart. I say confront them, has always worked for me.

For example, a few years ago there was a rumour at my school that I was gay (which is in fact partly true). When people asked me about it I just smiled and said 'Maybe'. But since I was 'that weird goth girl', eyes were often fixed on me during the breaks. So one day my BFF just grabbed my boob out of nowhere, and people didn't know where to look. I just couldn't stop laughing.

I don't get bullied anymore these days. And don't let them to that to you either.

Haha, oh god, that's a pretty funny end to it

I've tried it all; I've stared at them in a doubting way, I've threatened one of them, I've talked to teachers, I've ignored them and joked around with buddies, continuing to be myself... I'm just gonna go for the last option until I get the fuck out of this place. And that's less than 6 months, luckily.

that i'm such a loser
my sister has her great job and to die for boyfriend
my good friend is pregnant (i know she's unhappy about it, but my first reaction was being jealous - wtf is wrong with me????)
another good friend is celebrating her 6 year anniversary with her boyfriend (of which 4 years were a long distance relationship, he even lived in africa for a while, but of course they are happy anyway)
and then another friend just graduated from law school

god i hate my life so much sometimes

^ Honey. Please. Of course it looks like that now, but imagine:
1. If you had a to die for boyfriend, he'd annoy the fuck outta you. You keep telling about how weird your sister is with relationships; would you prefer to be that way yourself? I know you wouldn't, not seriously and not on long terms.
2. If you were pregnant you'd waste your perfect body, not even speaking of not having any fun within the next 20 years until the brat's moved out. And after that you'll be too old and tired (thanks to the brat) to have fun.
3. If you had been in a relationship for the last six years - see 1.
4. If you had just graduated from law school you wouldn't have done anything but studying for the last five years, and you'd never gonna do anything but work for the next 40 years. Brilliant perspective, isn't it.

Your sister's great job is really the only cool thing in the whole list.

BossHoss concert in less than two months, better think of that.
It's better than a boyfriend, anyway, because we can be sure it's gonna be awesome. And it's gonna last about as long as happiness lasts in relationships, only that in case of the concert you won't have to ask yourself "why the fuck did I ever even look at this bastard/loser/psycho?" afterwards.
Now shut up. You're only a loser if you call yourself one.

Love ^___^

^actually that concert is just another proof of how childish and useless i am
i know those things don't matter to you but they do to me..

^ u are just depressed. Stop saying you're a loser. I bet you're envied by many

My life.

^Those days suck, but hang in there. You make your own luck.



I would just loooove to come and visit them with some buddies of mine
Too bad Sweden is a little too far from here ;P

But seriously, what you do now is the best thing to do. I've seen a lot of people give up their identity just to fit in, and they got really unhappy. One day those bullies will realize you won't change for them, and eventually they will leave you alone. And ofcourse, going to a new place helps. It helped me too. A very important thing to do when you start over is not to feel like a victim. 'Cause if you don't, others won't either.