DEATHSTARS OFFICIAL FORUM

think i might have lost my phone...i hope i just left it at home this morning...fuckery

Stupid people and the fact that I am constantly pushed into things I hate...

i feel like a moron...why did i invite my boyfriend to have dinner at my place tomorrow? he cooks considerably better than me plus i don't really have money to buy decent food...i'm just gonna cook spaghetti with ketchup and dress up extra hot so he won't even notice...yeah sounds like a plan

^ Spaghetti is ALWAYS the answer

my former hostmum...seriously...what the fuck is wrong with her? now she told her mum she could take the kids on a holiday til the third of july, when i'm arriving at the first...why am i even coming?
"you can spend the time with your friends in helsinki if you want to"
oh great, three days to either spend alone with nothing to do in fuckin orimattila or in helsinki where no good lives...of course i'm gonna ask aino if she has time and that would be great, but come on...there's 3 people in helsinki i have a really difficult relationship with and all of them are gonna ask me to catch a drink or something when they find out i got free time there...

i'm kinda close to asking if she even needs me there...i mean...why am i paying about 300 euros on flights if there's NOTHING to do for me there???
now i wish there was a way out of this...i wish someone would die...well not really, but you know what i mean...

while writing a farewell letter to my deceased grandmother the realization that she's dead hit me like a truck, there are so many things that I should have asked her; today I met my ex boyfriend from my hometown, who almost made me kill myself a few years ago, right in the middle of Berlin; I have until Sunday to finish a homework and I'm pretty sure I won't be able to do so, next to the preparation for a presentation for Monday and the shitload I have to learn for my six exams within five days; I miss my boyfriend so much, but he's in Sweden for a viking market, with no internet or cellphone connection; and now as the cherry on top my ex lover thinks it's time to piss me off a bit.
Why is it that when one thing goes wrong, all of a sudden everything goes wrong?

my boss. so stupid.. if there are changes in my group, why is he telling my coworker on monday/tuesday and me yesterday and is all like "DO NOT TELL EACH OTHER!!"
da fuq?

the boyfriend...and i'm not even in town...he's being such a jerk! "yeah i'm gonna be back on monday, but i won't be able to anything til wednesday cause i'll be exhausted from work!"
you spin records for fuckin 4 hours a night!!! stop being such a pussy and just say it if you don't wanna see me even though by then it will have been two weeks...

asshole!

^ Newsflash: Men are such pussies... can't stand that bout them. Among many other things...

my own fears and doubts, they make it so difficult to explore things.

well women are no price to live with either...total hypocrates who pretend to be something they're not just to be oh so different or worth something...it's making me sick

humans are just so useless

AMEN, sista

word!
and they don't even get it, when you're talking about them or inuslting them.. they're all like "oh, yes. you're SO right i hate those people too and bablabla" just to stay with your group or something like that.

my body anxd/or brain just don't seem to notice that i'm on holiday and keep waking me up at 7am.

My mother...as always.